Life's Journey...
Well, realizing that the last entry in my blog was back in April I need to update what's going on with me...
LOTS! Have been, up until recently, very active in acting/singing classes. In fact, have done some scene presentations, film work and classwork even creating a scene for my reel, auditioned for the South Bay TBA general auditions, got called by Bus Barn Theatre in Los Altos to play Aida's father in Aida, the musical. Have been making great strides in my acting for singers and Wednesday nite acting classes regarding being effortlessly dynamic and falling more into my character worksuch as being "sexy" and "dark" and my singing has been getting so much more richer and from the gut rather than the throat and chest. Amazing when you attach acting choices to a song or monologue or scene. Also, big goal is to create and perform my one man show at the Plush Room before the end of this year. (Possibly with a friend or two in the show.) I want to focus on this.
I have also hit a financial wall or road block, if you will. Have had to make some pretty harsh and sobering decisions around getting financial stable. Very difficult having to make these decisions with the fear of falling back into the corporate maze of living for the job. I am just praying that I will be able to handle it and keep things in perspective and realize the means to an end and appreciate it for that and not get totally depressed with the notion of having to do the 9-5-er again. Big commute, big time committment, big expectations.
I don't have a choice...or much of a choice. However, I am looking into life coaching and starting up my own business practice around that. Exciting and makes sense. We'll see what I can do with that idea.
This financial situation that I'm in has been a sobering and humbling experience. Having to ask friends and acquaintances for money, very hard to do for someone that has prided himself on being independent and self-sufficient. I can't remember being on this side of the financial abyss in a long time. Being in a depression that zaps my energy and has made it almost impossible to function at anything near the level I am used to performing.
I keep feeling like this amazing miracle will rescue me from this dilemma. But I also feel like I am...have run out of time. I guess a good thing is that the retrograde we have been in is over...yeah...so, hopefully, good things will manifest now.
This post seems rather morbid to me, for me. Have been reading the "Artist's Way" by Julia Cameron. Very good book. Been writing my morning pages and trying to figure out how I create an artist date. The writing has been helping with the loosening of the creative self inside me. Interesting when you are depressed how creativity seems to run away.
State of mind is only more underscored with the necessity of being positive and alive.
In my hour of need, the true litmus, "actions speak louder than words". You realize just who your real friends really are. Amazing and sad and true.
Leap, and the net will appear.
Life's journey is not to arrive at the grave safely, in a well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, totally worn out, shouting "Holy shit, what a ride!" Mavis Leyrer age 83.
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"All that I need is within me now."
LOTS! Have been, up until recently, very active in acting/singing classes. In fact, have done some scene presentations, film work and classwork even creating a scene for my reel, auditioned for the South Bay TBA general auditions, got called by Bus Barn Theatre in Los Altos to play Aida's father in Aida, the musical. Have been making great strides in my acting for singers and Wednesday nite acting classes regarding being effortlessly dynamic and falling more into my character worksuch as being "sexy" and "dark" and my singing has been getting so much more richer and from the gut rather than the throat and chest. Amazing when you attach acting choices to a song or monologue or scene. Also, big goal is to create and perform my one man show at the Plush Room before the end of this year. (Possibly with a friend or two in the show.) I want to focus on this.
I have also hit a financial wall or road block, if you will. Have had to make some pretty harsh and sobering decisions around getting financial stable. Very difficult having to make these decisions with the fear of falling back into the corporate maze of living for the job. I am just praying that I will be able to handle it and keep things in perspective and realize the means to an end and appreciate it for that and not get totally depressed with the notion of having to do the 9-5-er again. Big commute, big time committment, big expectations.
I don't have a choice...or much of a choice. However, I am looking into life coaching and starting up my own business practice around that. Exciting and makes sense. We'll see what I can do with that idea.
This financial situation that I'm in has been a sobering and humbling experience. Having to ask friends and acquaintances for money, very hard to do for someone that has prided himself on being independent and self-sufficient. I can't remember being on this side of the financial abyss in a long time. Being in a depression that zaps my energy and has made it almost impossible to function at anything near the level I am used to performing.
I keep feeling like this amazing miracle will rescue me from this dilemma. But I also feel like I am...have run out of time. I guess a good thing is that the retrograde we have been in is over...yeah...so, hopefully, good things will manifest now.
This post seems rather morbid to me, for me. Have been reading the "Artist's Way" by Julia Cameron. Very good book. Been writing my morning pages and trying to figure out how I create an artist date. The writing has been helping with the loosening of the creative self inside me. Interesting when you are depressed how creativity seems to run away.
State of mind is only more underscored with the necessity of being positive and alive.
In my hour of need, the true litmus, "actions speak louder than words". You realize just who your real friends really are. Amazing and sad and true.
Leap, and the net will appear.
Life's journey is not to arrive at the grave safely, in a well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, totally worn out, shouting "Holy shit, what a ride!" Mavis Leyrer age 83.
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"All that I need is within me now."
posted by Rick at 10:24 AM
2 Comments:
Congratulations on Aida!!!! That is fantastic!
Tho I'm not on an artistic journey/adventure, I am also in a similar boat regarding the conflict of financial challenges and the of how far I intend to allow myself to fall back into the corporate box.
I urge you to hold tight to that dream. We all have to generate income -- but don't lose sight of the fact that it's just money. It can't feed the soul or bring you happiness. Money does provides stability and we all need that, but it is not the most important thing.
Love and dreams. To me, those are the things that matter.
You're on the right path. It's going to work out.
Hi Ricardo,
I don't know how I missed this post -- my blog notifier must have skipped it!
I'm housesitting at Jeffrey's right now (10/9) and was just checking my blogroll... and here it was!
First of all, I so enjoyed seeing/being with you this weekend at the wedding (check out the sweet pic of Andrea on my page) -- and of course, your wonderful, heartfelt singing. You've grown so much in the last year as an artist... don't lose hope "just because" you have to add financial circumstances into the equation. You've got such a gift, and the point is that (1) you've GOTTEN IN TOUCH WITH IT AGAIN, and (2) you'll NEVER LOSE IT AGAIN.
Money is just money and we have to learn to make it work for US in our lives, and not the other way around. Sounds dumb, I know, when disaster seems eminent and friends few and far between... but ultimately, as your friend above has said, LOVE and DREAMS are what really count!
Second of all, re: Artist Dates are very, very simple... no need to make big production. I did The Artist Way a long time ago when it first came out (you can imagine how it spread like wildfire in Los Angeles), and the dates are to made to FILL THE WELL. To get inspiration from fantastic art, in all disciplines. And for me, variety was the key. IT'S DIFFICULT TO CREATE IN A VACUUM, or when the well is dry :)
Lastly, I missed being able to really talk and hang out, like we usually do when we all are together -- it was quite the rush this weekend. Let's make sure we don't miss it over the next few months, k?
Love ya,
Madley
PS I love when you blog! And know that whatever I'm telling you, I'm telling myself threefold! :)
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