February Dreaming...

Okay, so I am finally getting around to creating another post. Two in January, not stellar but, hey, better than nothing! So it is February now and still haven't solidified my 2016 Goals for the Year. (I know what they are mostly, but need to solidify them on paper in a meaningful, purposeful and productive way...not to mention measurable way. That makes it a bit more difficult. Also, need to really clean my place. (Sore subject...ouch!) Okay, so I stated in a previous post that I need to move to LA to find those opportunities that will push me into that next level of artistry and opportunity I call being an actor. It's true. I know it's true. I can't wait for it to happen here in the land that I love...sigh. But if only it was that easy...to just move. Fears I have. Stability down there. The ability to find other "part time" adventures like I have here to keep me afloat. There are plenty of not-so-visible things that working at the SF Symphony and The Go Games including health care accounts that subsidize my health care costs. The symphony is a union job with many benefits that come along with that including getting paid a living wage. Imagine that. Feel like I need to have a nest egg in order to move down there that can keep me afloat while I am getting myself acclimated to the South Land. Hmmm...I need a plan...some luck in the money department where I come into a big sum of money...sooner rather than later. That would give me some freedom to take a chance. (Yes, there are a number of voices that go off in my head about all this...but I truly can't give them energy. Need to keep that for putting positive notions around my dream.) I want to work towards a goal that includes the move, if for no other reason, to allow myself to see what I can do down there being immersed in the world of an actor. Got to think more about this and plan...any thoughts, please let me know. I'm all ears. On another note, had to cancel my trip to Vermont to meet up with my high school friends (our fearsome five) and squelch the idea of an actual vacation (haven't had one really in over 10 years.) My schedule at the symphony made it impossible to make it happen. :-( That led to one of my friends saying that I need balance in my life and I seem to put priority on work vs...(family, friends, people) Well, like I told my friend, it's not that I do put work first...it's I have to put work first...my survival and having a roof over my head dictates it. I love not having a 9 to 5 job but comes with it are the drawbacks of not have a flowing salary for security. I have had both and, frankly, I am more happy with the current situation pursuing my passion. It's not for everyone, but I find my life more vital, in the moment and satisfying having to make my way every month. It requires diligence and faith but it allows for creating my world in the fashion I want it. enough for now...